Thursday, July 19, 2012


1.  On the job front, I have so much work to do and so little will to do it.  I have senioritis when it comes to my job, and it actually kind of bothers me - I'm not used to caring so little, but I can't seem to find my motivation.

2.   I've been aiming to get to -60 pounds before my third fill on Monday.  I'm currently sitting at -56.5.  So close!

3.  I'm still exhausted from my mother's visit last weekend.  It's more of an emotional exhaustion than a physical exhaustion, but still...  It was tiring.  I learned some things about my mother and had some realizations about myself, and I've come to the conclusion that I need to work on being a kinder and more generous person, especially to my wife.

4.  I miss Las Vegas.  We haven't been since Easter, which isn't actually that long; however, we usually take a trip over the 4th of July that we didn't do this year.  I miss everything about Vegas - the smells, the sounds, the sights, the gambling...  I can't wait to go back in the fall.

5.  I miss the beach.  There's something about being at the beach, on vacation, with the sun, sand and surf.  It can't be replicated by the pool.

6.  The wife got a promotion at work, which means now she's working full-time and making significantly more money than she was previously.  This is great news for our family finances.

7.  I killed my (new) fitbit.  I think I am just not meant to have one.

8.  I've (kind of) gotten over my cravings for fast food (I mean, I still really, really want some Taco Bell, but whatever, that shit's delish).  I've realized I miss the convenience of fast food more than I really miss the taste.  And in realizing that, and in figuring out what I can make fast and cheap at home, I've been overcoming that urge for fast food.  But now, other cravings are taking the place of fast food - like lemon squares.  I really, really, *really* want a lemon square.  I don't usually bake, but I think I'm going to try making these sometime soon.

9.  (This one is gross, sorry.)  I had a huge flare up of my hidradenitis suppurativa last week.  My armpit was the size of a golfball.  It hurt so very much, and restricted my movement to the point that I couldn't lift my left arm.  Which was awesome when getting onto and off of a plane and socializing around 500+ co-workers.  This has been the first flare up in quite some time.  I was hoping that these would reduce or even resolve once I quit smoking and started losing weight, but I think that exercise (specifically, sweating during exercise) may have been a significant causal factor in this last one.  So now I've switched from my beloved philosophy products to plain ol' Dial antibacterial, and I'm being particularly diligent about showering (which is not to say that I don't always pay attention to proper hygene, but I will admit to occasionally not showering right after getting out of the pool).  It would make me very happy to not have another flare up as long as I live.

10.  We have three cats, one of whom became an outdoor cat shortly after we moved.  Because I'm paranoid, and because we live near a fairly busy street, we put up an invisible fence to keep him confined to our yard.  What we didn't realize was that the invisible fence got unplugged sometime recently.  Two nights ago, we couldn't find the cat.  We stood out in the backyard and called and called and called for him.  Finally, he reappeared, jumping over the fence from the neighbor's yard.  Oh, boy.  We got that invisible fence fixed so fast that poor kitty didn't even know what hit him.  Now he just lounges about and huffs at me, all, "YOU!  You took away my freedom!"


  1. You are the bomb diggity....
    56.5 pounds lost??? That is freaking awesome!! Good for you on realizing you need to be kinder and more generous to your wife. Self reflection and improvement is hard to do :) I feel ya on the pool totally not be able to replace the beach. Wish I was there now!

    1. Thanks! My mother, who is admittedly a generation-and-a-half removed from me, has a much different perspective on selflessness than I idealize. It was a good reminder of what is and is not an attractive attitude.

  2. I'd love to go to the beach. Stupid Texas. Grr.

    And four yearly trips to Las Vegas sounds heavenly, I've yet to go at all... must live vicariously through you. :)

    1. I miss the beach! I feel like I used to go once every summer, but I haven't been since moving to Texas. Pfft.

      Vegas is my very favorite place on Earth.

  3. I work with a ton of nurses and when I needed to lose a few pounds right before my surgery, they told me to take a couple of Midol or Pamprin's ... apparently they are exactly like Lasik and will get rid of any built up water weight you may have. So hopefully that nugget may help you shed till you hit the big 60lbs!!!

    On a different note, congrats to your wife for getting moved up to full time status!