Dip!

My trigger food is dip.  Any kind of dip.  Spinach, ranch, french onion, queso, you name it...  Dips are my Devil.  I could get a 24 oz. container of french onion dip from Kroger and that baby (along with a bag of chips) would be gone in a day.  1,380 calories for the dip, 1,920 for the chips.  3,300 calories worth of "snack."  That's almost 3 days worth of calories for me now.  And I would do that 3 or 4 or 5 times a week. 

Is it any wonder I weighed 315 pounds?

I know that there are healthy dip choices I can have now.  Hummus, bean, salsa.  I could have them on celery or, in less than a week, on a tortilla or pita.  They could be a part of my healthy eating plan.  I could incorporate healthy dips into my daily calorie count, just like I do with my 25-calorie freezer pops (Root beer flavored?  Yes, please!).  On my last few trips to Sam's Club, I've almost purchased the hummus, been tempted by the salsa and looked longingly at the spinach dip.

But what I'm slowly coming to realize is that I'm not going to be able to have those foods in my house for a long, long time.  I may be doing well with my eating and slowly adding exercise (treadmill yesterday, yay!), but my band wasn't a cure for my brain.  I ate my breakfast at 7am, but at 9:30, I was trying to mentally justify eating a snack.  I wasn't hungry.  I just wanted the snack.  If I brought that 24 oz. container of dip into my house, I'd still want to (and would be able to) eat the entire thing in a day.

And so, for me, right now, the best way to avoid temptation is not to tempt myself at all.

I'm writing this here as a reminder to myself, no matter how good the hummus happens to look.

In other news, I was scheduled for my first fill a week from this Friday, but the doctor's office called me this morning and left a message that it needed to be rescheduled.  I was prepared to be really pissed at them for delaying my first fill (and therefore my ability to eat beef, pork and bread-type products), but, yay, they moved it up to Monday.  First fill!  I'm excited.