No turning back now...

My surgeon's office called me yesterday to let me know the exact amount I would need to pay out of pocket for my surgery.  I was a little surprised, because the amount was 50% more than I'd been anticipating.  And 50% more when you're already talking about several thousand dollars is a lot.  But then, this morning at pre-op, I saw the full cost of the surgery - more than $32k.  Knowing that number, I thanked my lucky stars for my insurance and paid half.  Half today, half next week.  I guess there's no turning back now.